Stacy Schaffer is a counselor no longer living in Chandler, Arizona with her adorable golden retriever, Rusty Brown. She moved to Colorado last summer to be a part of the crazy little Refuge community, and to pursue a career in childrens’ bereavement counseling. She is thrilled to learn how to ski, explore all of the doggy parks with Rusty, and for all of the ups & downs of the adventures to come.
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Open Letter to Breast Cancer
at 15
I first learned of the absolute evil that is breast cancer
They said that you would win within 6 months, that you were so aggressive; it was inevitable
My mom, she fought you with utter vigor despite your constant mutations and strength.
Everything from positive thinking, to test drugs, to constant chemotherapy and radiation, to miracle tea, and even a surgically implanted morphine pump.
Yet, you kill, steal, and destroy
Which is weird, as I vaguely remember reading about a similar force that does the same. SO unoriginal.
17
Brutal and invasive surgeries that you put her through continually hacked away at her spirit.
Breast cancer rips at the dignity of the woman; a symbol of her femininity.
The damage after a mastectomy is not only skin deep; it carves and whispers venom into the soul.
Even as a teenager, it was so very clear that your main role was the tearing down of the female spirit.
p.s, I also hate that pink is your definitive ribbon color. Pink reminds me of happy little girls, spring blossoms; puppy tongues.
Not and accurate depiction of the real, behind the scenes story, and ravages that you are capable of.
I despise you.
at 22
I received the phone call announcing, after a seven year war, you finally stole my mom’s last breath.
Not sure what* your* real victory is, as you extinguished the life of an amazing woman, destroyed the love of her life, and killed my mom.
Sure, 8 years later, I can walk in the races, honor her memory; advocate for awareness; campaign for a cure.
Until it gets personal again.
Here’s the real deal:
I have decided to get the test to determine if, in fact, I do have the same genetic time bomb.
Soo, if you are coming after me, I feel that it is only fair (despite the fact that is not the way YOU play.), that you are warned..
I will kick your ass.
It is not a matter of better technology and more funding in the movement, although I am deeply grateful for those things.
I will not, cannot, let my mother’s legacy be in vain, and therefore, you can’t have me.
Let it be known, that it you come after me and my girls, that ooh, I am, in fact, the most determined person I know.
While I am so angry at how powerfully you changed the course of my history; know that I am a fighter. (And a kicker and a screamer.)
If you choose to come after me, be prepared for your disease to face a whole new challenge in avoiding obliteration.
Not only as a tribute to my mom, but all of the others that you have senselessly executed, I will seek your demise.
I am so not afraid.
You
should be afraid of
me.
poetry by stacy schaffer, all rights reserved
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